(i really enjoy night shots, and lightening is the frosting on the cake.)

( My first street shots. i've been wanting to do street photography for some time now, but just haven't had the opportunity.

This was at a Twins game. i put the camera on my knee with setting appropriate for the light and tried snapping some shots when there was enough noise to cover the shutter's noise. Auto focus did me no good, so i focused the lens on a mans hat in front of me that seemed to be the same distance away - and it was the EXACT distance this lass was from me.)

(RYM, Wyoming, MN)

work was terribly boring today. That bugs me a great deal, because my job has not changed at all - only my perception of my work. i struggle to feel that i accomplish enough during a day. This is really out of my hands, as i cannot control whether a given task takes ten minutes or three hours. It seems that some days everything i touch breaks, tools are missing, and parts are out of stock (i clean and repair popcorn machines). This has some effect on how i perceive my ability to do my work in a adequate manner. From that, i also evaluate how much i enjoy what i do. i feel that my ability to enjoy my work is essential. If i enjoy my work, it is a act of worship - when i enjoy what i am doing, i do better, and my interest in what i do is not from myself but a blessing from God Himself. i have had some wonderful days of work, where i am overwhelmed with joy. Granted, it's not solely the work that i enjoy, but everything that accompanies it. i find that when i reflect on theology and the aspects of God, and enjoy the beauties around me, things go very well - time passes faster, my actual work goes faster, and i am in a state of worship (that is, i am glorifying God with what He has given me, i am overwhelmed with His beauties). i need to change my attitude about my work, i am so fortunate that i have the job that i do.

[New Years Eve, _{James Wagner}]

[Shooting at the Mallory's,
Erin M., _{Kelli F., & Julie L.}]

there are some things i really need to get rolling here. i need to read more, i need to apply for school (again, let's hope the second round will be the real deal), and i need more work. i love my current job, in fact, i find my self overwhelmed with joy when i work some days. This is usually the case when i have theology on my mind, and the music in the room is just right, and God's beauty just blows my mind and i find myself beyond content.

i have been hesitant to get another job for a few reasons. i don't want another job like what all my past jobs have been like - i don't enjoy dealing with the general public, though you do run into a few people that are real jems and help you really appreciate what you do. No more sales for me, if i can at all avoid it. i can do the work very well, i can sell product, i can have the client walk away with a smile, but dealing with all the questions of people who are less than observant wears away at my mind.

So, that narrows my choice a bit... i'm also thinking i would really like to go to Sonshine this year, along with visiting my cousin up in Blackduck, so i need something flexible. i'm thinking i would be willing to give up doing Sonshine...

Photography was a thought, i did my first commission three weeks ago, and it was a wedding to top it.... a little backward on the scare of difficulty.

We'll see, something will show itself.

Along with this, i'm wondering about school - if i get in, do i go right away this fall semester, or do i wait until winter? Or should i wait a year all together? Then there is the conflict of wanting to get on with life and not waiting. i should be enjoying this process, not hurrying through it, trying to get to the next point of interest.

i'm going to take a shot at getting my blogging back up on a more regular basis, so a few photos a week, some thoughts and happenings...

[i went to Illinois with my Cousin, Melissa, for her oldest sisters wedding.

Plenty of photography ensued.

This is on the way to, along I-90 in Wisconsin. ]

Thanksgiving Guys Party

Good times, a few crappy shots, and plenty of memories -


Good times, a few crappy shots, and plenty of memories -

i'll explain in the morning... i want to go to bed.

XX :: [ 1 ] days until
Listening:: Surrounded By Your Love :: DJ Shog Feat. Aven


Written my junior year ::

What brings joy? What is joy? Can things bring joy? Actions? Things loose their shine, activities their luster. Is it new things that bring joy? They soon become old, and something will take it's place... But nothing is new, just reconstructed old ideas.

There is such desire to have, but to acquire is to have a new desire. There is no fulfillment

Please, someone tell me if i'm wrong, but in this sense, there is no such thing as fulfillment, only temporary satisfaction. Might this be so that we continually seek out G-D?

What do you strive for? What good will it do you? What you have toiled over will be given to someone else.

Ecc. 2:24-26 A man can do nothing better tan to eat and drink and find satisfaction in his work. This to, I see, is from the hand of G-D, for without HIM, who can eat or find enjoyment? To the man who pleases him, G-D gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases G-D.
This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.

Ecc. 3:9-14, 22
9 What does the worker gain from his toil? 10 I have seen the burden G-D has laid on men. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what G-D has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. 13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of G-D. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. G-D does it so that men will revere him.

22 So I saw that there is nothing better for a man than to enjoy his work, because that is his lot. For who can bring him to see what will happen after him?

i do not understand hope, for what reason do we rise everyday? What are we pursuing, holding onto? Even more so, for those that don't have Christ, is there hope for them? For those that loos hope - their determination to live -> what was that hope?